Everything, but Nothing at All

School has kept me so busy that I haven't able to update the blog and I was missing a part for my tripod. I now have a new part for my tripod, so next week I may take outfit photos Monday thru Friday to show what I wear to school if you guys don't mind a week of more casual outfits. I do plan to post my outfit as well as a full recap from the thrifting day. I also plan to post  a outfit and recap from the clothing swap on Sunday. In the mean time I have been uploading Youtube videos. I don't plan to post them all on the blog in the future, but I just wanted to give you something and say I'm still alive.

This video is on fat on fat hate and hate in general.

In this video I show off what I got from the Mac Wonder Woman Collection.  This can be watched in HD.

My friend Jay and I talk about why glee is sucking this season including the way fat girls are being treated on the show. This can be watched in HD.

Pictures from the pass few days. 

The Target near my house has Nicole by OPI nail polish on sale for $3.50, so I bought some and painted my nails. 

I got a star cut into my hair. 

I went the Mac Pro store to check out the Wonder Woman Collection. Everything on my face is from the collection. 

I met the cutest pair of metallic yellow Docs on the train. Don't our feet look cute together? LOL

Also, you can still vote for me in the Refinery 29 Contest here. Just click the heart next to my name and face then accept the Facebook app. 

Lessons Learned and Favorites

I love when Amelia does this post on her blog. At the end of her post she sometimes asks people to share their favorites and lessons learned and rather then write a book in her comments I thought I would just do my own post. I hope she doesn't mind. Here goes nothing! `

Lessons Learned  

1.) The best things in life are free. I can honestly say many of my favorite experiences in life have been free of charge. Making Buffalo Shrimp salad filled with every salad condiment that can fit in the bowl while watching Sunday night prime time television with my best friend. Or playing games and bouncing balls with Britney in Target. And finally, spending Halloween eating pizza, playing Wii games, watching Noah's Arc, and recanting our favorite moments in the what seems like a billion cycles of America's Next Top Mode with Jay and Nya. 

2.) Everyone shows their true colors eventually. People abruptly attempt to change for the better for many reasons, sickness, guilt, longing and the list goes on, but unless the change comes from a genuine place folks will slowly start to revert back to their original most genuine self. 

3.) The big picture sometimes out ranks the devils lurking in the details. I remember in "A Bronx Tale" when Calogero was chasing after a friend he didn't particularly care for for $20 he loaned him. Sonny told him that as long as he owed him the money he'd never see him again and if he wasn't a very good friend $20 was a small price to pay to be rid of him. Sometimes it's important to look at things the way Sonny did. 

This week I realized maybe someone isn't being a very good friend to me and rather then get stressed out and hound them about why maybe I should just accept that they may not want to spend time with me any more.  If I don't hound them they won't feel obligated to attempt to see me or call me. Having had suffered in their past indiscretions is a small price to pay for the peace I'll gain not being stressed out about the details regarding the status of our friendship. 

4.) Living life carefree and without a plan is easier said then done. Sometimes I let the future get the best of me. 

5.) Validating yourself is the most important, but everybody needs at least one other person to remind them that they are special. Thanks Mom.

Favorites

1.) The Glee Cast Sweet Transvestite - I'm a little confused as to why it was decided that "Sweet transvestite from Transexual,Transylvania" would be changed to "Sweet transvestite from Sensational, Transylvania", but I love the soulful vocals. 

2.) New Wii Games - Just Dance is so much fun. The dances are ridiculous, but the point is to give your all, make a fool of yourself and have fun. Plus it's a work out in disguise. DJ Hero was hard and DJ Hero 2 adds even more elements to make it even harder, but I love every second of it. 

3.) Playing Dress Up - Sometimes when putting clothes away I just start trying out different looks and experimenting with my wardrobe. I feel like a six year old playing in a dress up chess filled with fairy tale costumes only the costumes in my chess help me give a glimpse of whats on the inside to people that can only see me from the outside. 

4.) Alice Takes a Trip - Many of my old hair pieces don't work for my new hair do (I'm going to convert the pieces on bands to clips) and some of them are lost, so I took advantage of the Alice Takes a Trip Discount code from last week and purchased all of their bows. I love them! I wish their clothes came in plus size, so I can wear everything. 

5.) Obsessed - I love this movie! The ridiculousness of the bad acting, horrid plot, and underdeveloped characters makes for a great laugh. After all there is a beauty in mistakes right?

Derrick: Sharon,where am I suppose to go?

Sharon: To hell, but until then I suggest the Four Seasons!

Laughing with a Mouth of Blood...

Yesterday I went to get my hair done for the first time since I've been back in Chicago. Rather then get a basic curl or straight style I figured since I was paying why not change it up a bit, so I got a faux hawk. Why a faux hawk? Well when I was 15 my sister braided up the sides of my hair in cornrows with designs into a faux hawk and curled the middle and I really liked it. After that though I became the girl that wanted length over style. I would never curl my hair tight because it made my hair look shorter, but now although I didn't cut my hair I want style over length. I also seemed to think my face was too fat for a short style; my mind has since changed.

While I don't wear make up often I do have a little bit that I throw on every once and a while.  I am wearing Professional Paris Make Up Forever High Definition Foundation #170 , Urban Decay SkyScraper Multi Benefit Mascara , and Sephora Lip Attitude - Star Plum Vertigo 12. I don't know enough about make up to wear Eye Shadow and liner yet...maybe next time? 

Every time I get my hair done I get my eyebrows arched, this time was no different.

Accessories:

Earrings - Probably Beauty Supply 

Bow - Alice Takes a Trip

Is anybody trying a new hair style or a new look? Let me know!

Also, check out my tumblr page here!

Happy Birthday Mommy Mae!

Today is my grandmother's Birthday! She is 82 years young today! I love her so much! This post may seem unrelated to this blog, but with out her this blog would not exist!  My Grandmother, Mommy Mae, has been supporting in every endeavor since I hit the Earth 20 years ago. I am and always have been a heavy reader. I remember my dad took my sister and I to Toy's R Us when I was a kid and after looking around my sister came back with a baby doll and I can back with Where the Side Walk Ends. As got older when ever I would as for a book and my grandmother could afford it she would get it for me. We all know that great writers read great books, so I am for ever grateful that through my grandmother I had access to great literature.

When I was 16 after having multiple issues with my mother, despite the objections of many family members, my grandmother allowed me to live with her. My mother was a single parent and for a long time she couldn't afford to buy my siblings and I lots of clothes and even when she had more money she said that I would just gain weight and grow out of my clothes, so she wouldn't buy them (My mother has since then become much more supportive of me and my size). When I moved in with my grandmother she bought me lots of clothes which allowed me to experiment with my style.  Most of my clothing posted  on this blog was purchased by my mother and grandmother as well!

My grandmother also has made investments in me and my future by supporting me while I went to college in Chicago and now supporting me along with my mother and step father here in New York. I am applying to Universities right, so I can graduate and make her proud by handing her my college degree. She has my high school diploma; I couldn't have done that without her either. I am serious guys...everyone said I wouldn't finish high school and I mean everyone, but my grandmother believed in me and got me through it. She has invested in this blog by purchasing me the camera I used to take pictures. She believes in me and this project and for that I am grateful.

My grandmother has done a lot for me materially, but most of all I appreciate her undying support. I can call her any time day or night and she is there to support me and help me get through what ever I'm going through. That is something I can honestly say I do not get from any one else. As a kid I always kind of felt like my mother supported my sister more because she played instruments and drew and I wrote, but my grandmother would tell everyone I was a wonderful writer and would allow me to read my stories to her even as I stuttered over every other word. I can call my grandmother and talk to her for hours. I love that! Sometimes my aunt shows her my post here and it makes me so happy! :-)

So, to the woman that has loved me and supported me my whole life, I love you and Happy Birthday!